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A picture from last week

A picture from last week

My beloved friend Julia took a picture of me couple of weeks ago ^^

My beloved friend Julia took a picture of me couple of weeks ago ^^

I just cry and cry and cry all the time, and i can’t really stop… I hate it. Normaly I almost never cry but now for the last 3 days I start crying all the time. Maybe my strenght starts to fade?

I really really REALLY hate pms, i feel like shit. I have anxiety 24/7 and benzo doesn’t help and i cry all the time for little shitty things that normally don’t bother me. But on the other hand there’s been really hard things to deal with lately, for example that my bff, the one and only person that really gets me and make me want to live maybe has cancer, again. And if the testresults shows that it’s cancer, for the fifth time, he wont go through any treatment… When he told me that my whole world just fell apart.  I’m praying and begging to all the higher powers and all the gods that exist that it wont be cancer this time…

I really really REALLY hate pms, i feel like shit. I have anxiety 24/7 and benzo doesn’t help and i cry all the time for little shitty things that normally don’t bother me. But on the other hand there’s been really hard things to deal with lately, for example that my bff, the one and only person that really gets me and make me want to live maybe has cancer, again. And if the testresults shows that it’s cancer, for the fifth time, he wont go through any treatment… When he told me that my whole world just fell apart.  I’m praying and begging to all the higher powers and all the gods that exist that it wont be cancer this time…

The rage you feel, will consume you and destroy you let this rage inside you die. Raise your head up high Raise your head up high So the heavens hear you cry. Light the brightest fire from the highest mountain. So the whole world knows, that your spirit can’t be broken. Give up your fear, these senseless longings. Let this pain inside you die.

The rage you feel,
will consume you and destroy you
let this rage inside you die.

Raise your head up high
Raise your head up high
So the heavens hear you cry.
Light the brightest fire
from the highest mountain.
So the whole world knows,
that your spirit can’t be broken.

Give up your fear,
these senseless longings.
Let this pain inside you die.

FOTD

FOTD

I made this picture today, it took about 2-3hours to finish.
As always it looks much better irl ><

I made this picture today, it took about 2-3hours to finish.

As always it looks much better irl ><

Fuck humanity…

Get the fuck off and stop telling me how stupid it is that I quit with SNRI suddenly instead of decrease the dose. I know it’s idiotic but it is for the best because I couldn’t live with those side-effects even for 3-4 more weeks that it would take to lower the dose. I rather go through these withdraw-effects and potentianely have to go to the psychiatric ward and stay there for a couple of weeks, than have those obsession-thoughts that i’ve got to hurt my self for no reason (more than it felt like a MUST, something I HAVE to do) and risking that my tics i’ve got getting permanent.  So SHUT THE FUCK OFF, I’m the one that need to go through all these withdraw symptoms like brain zaps, not knowing what’s real or not all the sudden and wondering if i’m alive or if i’m dead, hallucinations, tics that gets so bad some hours that I can’t even take a glas of water, etc. So back the hell off!

thevolatilebird:

martinmunster:

theatheistgirl:

Is this the worst X-men tattoo in the world? Possibly.



… This makes me want to cry.

Are you sure it&#8217;s actually X-men? I mean.. I can&#8217;t even see the similarity xD (Hope people get the that&#8217;s-a-really-bad-tattoo-joke)

thevolatilebird:

martinmunster:

theatheistgirl:

Is this the worst X-men tattoo in the world? Possibly.

… This makes me want to cry.

Are you sure it’s actually X-men? I mean.. I can’t even see the similarity xD (Hope people get the that’s-a-really-bad-tattoo-joke)

(via timelordniko)

Om-fucking-nom! I loooove the über-morlock, wouldn’t kick him out of the bed :D

I&#8217;m so fucking confused, but I know one thing for sure and that is that I really love you&#8230;

I’m so fucking confused, but I know one thing for sure and that is that I really love you…

Picture of me when i have tics that involves head and shoulder.

Picture of me when i have tics that involves head and shoulder.

My upper lip i swollen :&lt;
I&#8217;ve got tics again, it started last week. I haven&#8217;t had tics for years! And last night it was pretty bad, i couldn&#8217;t stop tic even when i tried to sleep and i woke up during the night a couple of times because of a big tic that made my legs or stomach tic.

My upper lip i swollen :<

I’ve got tics again, it started last week. I haven’t had tics for years! And last night it was pretty bad, i couldn’t stop tic even when i tried to sleep and i woke up during the night a couple of times because of a big tic that made my legs or stomach tic.

I miss my teddybear <3 I can’t wait til things gets better and I can have him here again.